Saturday Im 19...Wow A year away from twenty years old and I swear to god I feel older that DIRT..Even though I know Im not I just cant help but feel old. My brother will be 16 next month and Im having a baby for Christ sake!!!! Ahhh I cant say I would change anything but damn you know there is more I could be doing. Unfortunately laziness has been getting in the way of me doing more..The bigger the baby gets in me the harder it is to just get my ass up and do things. No ambition and yeah I know it is my fault...I just hope I get a little energy back when the baby is born..Cuz Im going to need ALL that I can get. I hate feeling too stressed...My boyfriends mom passed away and he almost had to move to California but fortunately I got him back after a week and a half..His dad wanted to talk him in to staying there and leaving me and the baby behind. What a fucking dick I really must say though because its just sickening the thought of my child's grandparent not giving a shit about family. A snake of a man ya know! But on other terms I have been doing better than usual with the daily upkeep of life, at least Im not depressed at all. I cant wait to get this baby out of me though...Its sooooooo hard to move around that I cant stand standing up! But anhoosers Thats all I have to say for now..Tata my friends
Vampy